April 14, 2006

Quitter II

Well I'm still on a cigarette diet. I still have yet to say I quit. Even with the patch. The problem is I get into moods where it does'nt matter to me whether or not I quit. So that's where my problem comes in. I don't know if it's just me or is it the nicotine or what. I'm totally consious of it. It's not like it's not thought thru. I don't know. I don't want to give up most of the time, but if I keep having moments thinking this way, what's the point.

Posted by vance at 04:41 PM | Comments (1)



Happy LiveDay to you

Hey I just noticed... It's kind of this things 3rd year of jibberish....
Here's the first entry on here ...

There were a few other entries prior to this from Jan 2003, but they got lost playing around, so this is the first official entry...

Posted by vance at 10:01 AM | Comments (0)



Yikes Stripes

I was crawling the web, following link to link. I found myself on pages created by the next teen generation. I'm gonna call em generation "G". Now I know cool is important and english is not, it's all in the way you talk and walk, etc...

How ever does it make you cool to turn "this and that" into "dis and dat". It kind of seems that way to me. Chating on AIM or any chat, is'nt what bother me because you're saying what comes to mind, and if that's what you're thinking then so be it. But webpages ? I don't know it just seems like documenting stupidity. Most of "G" is not stupid and that's what makes it even funnier. I know there are things I use to say and do, (some I still say and do) I thought was cool that was really stupid, but I never went and documented it. Atleast not to my knowledge. So in turn I'll say "I should talk!". Funny thing is it does'nt matter... It's all a perception of the peers. Whatever.

yo dog, chill, it's mad stupid, git wit it bitches, dis is yo life G... shizzle...

Posted by vance at 09:48 AM | Comments (0)



April 01, 2006

Quitter

Well I've kind of made the decision to quit smoking. The hard part is that I'm not truly ready. I enjoy smoking sometimes, but it is mostly addiction. It is a health and money decision. Not a real want. But never the less I will attempt it. If nothing more it will get me one step closer to really quitting. I've decided Monday is the official day. But Friday thru Sunday is cut down and out. In other words I'm not cutting them completely out of the diet. I have and expect to have a few, but on a limited basis. I really would not be disappointed if I were to smoke one or two a day for the rest of my life, however we all know that would'nt happen. Unfortunately I feel like I need the help from one or the Patch/Gum/Losenge products... I don't fell like I can do it cold turkey but I'd really like to.

So I've mentioned it... from here there is nothing anyone can do and it's all me. I don't think it even needs to be acknowledged. In fact all it does is remind me. I probably should'nt even post this up because it will remind me. I'm one of those people who don't take well to minor changes. I notice minor changes more. Nothing special should be or needs to be done. I disagree with things like putting away the ashtrays and such, because I will notice that more than them being there. I've been smoking for aprrox 15 years and my father became a full time smoker when I was 3 or 4 so I'm quite use to seeing and being around it smoking or not.

I also kind of anti - anti smokers... If you knw what I mean. I do respect the decision of people not wanting to smoke but the people that try to force no smoking actually make me mad and want to smoke because they annoy me. I hate people telling me what to do and I would never do that to anyone. It's my life to do with as I please. That's what I have a mother and father and wife for. I made the decision to smoke I have to make the same one to stop. I knew it was bad for me when I started so what makes people think telling me how bad it is for me and making it inconvenient will help. Duh...

By the way this is a semi ramble because I'm a little off beat here... I went from a pack and a quarter to 5 yesterday... The morning and the evening is when I smoke the heaviest.

Just send me luck...

Posted by vance at 09:20 AM | Comments (0)